Friday, September 24, 2010

The Last Year Or So...

It has been a year, at least, since I have had a decent night's sleep. This time last year, I was about 3 months pregnant and already having a hard time sleeping. Add to that Morgan's uncanny knack for waking up regularly and I can honestly say I don't really remember the last time I actually slept a night through.


Ian has been a bad sleeper since the day he was born. I remember sitting in the hospital laying him in his bassinet and thinking, "I am not going to hold this one all day because I want him to be able to sleep without me." Yeah. Right.

This is a basic breakdown of our average day:  Ian is grouchy and cranky because he fights sleep so bad. We are talking the kid will not even lay down in my arms, the only time he falls asleep is when he gets so exhausted that he literally slumps over sitting up. And the moment I lay him down, he's awake again. If it is not within moments, it is most definitely within the half hour.

Then, there's bed time. Oh and by the way, let me preface all of this by saying that if I leave Ian in his crib while he is awake, he will, without fail, crawl into the side of the crib repeatedly. He comes out with his head and face all red, bruised, and on a few occasions he has even had a goose egg. So, that said, I don't know how letting him "cry it out" will ever work. Okay, so back to the bed time routine:  We don't have one.  I hope and pray he will just fall asleep and let me sleep.

Alright, now I am at the point where I feel like I need to explain myself. You know, excuse away all my bad mommy behavior. We don't have a bedtime routine, I still nurse him at night, and yes, he still sleeps in my bed. I know that everyone of these issues is probably causing its own set of issues all on their own, but that is where the biggest problem comes into play:

  How can I be consistent with anything when I am so sleep deprived that I sob in my bed when he wakes up for the fifth time at 3 o'clock in the morning?

And don't even get me started on how I react to JD when he tells me to just go put him in his crib- since that is all my husband wants to do to help- tell me what to do.

Oh, and the other problem I would love some advice on is that him and Morgan are sharing a room. I don't know how it is going to work for me to put him back in his crib and go in and out of there 5 times a night without having a double fit from the two of them- no wait, make that a triple fit once you throw me into the mix.

That's it. That's all. Just a random rambling of my newest crisis.


3 comments:

Alicia said...

I TOTALLY understand. It was really hard to get Connor to sleep in the same room with Hunter, and he has also always been a poor sleeper. Lynn and I would wait outside of the door and go in every 5, 10 then 15 minutes. I think the difference here is, you need JD to be on the same page as you and do it together (so your not alone and so you can get sleep too). I think it took a good 2 weeks of being consistent and having very little sleep to get to the point that we could just lay him down and he would go to sleep. BUT...you also have the issue of Ian taking his own head off on the crib, and there I wish I could give some hope, but I have never had that happen?
I really hope you can get some sleep soon!!!! Somebody told me about how they would gradually move their kiddo closer to the room that they were supposed to sleep in (I think she used a travel crib) and then she finally got him in the other room and then started "sleep training". hahaha maybe it would work?

Adam & Rachel said...

sounds rough...i have my own issues with my little one...toughness...but my only advise would be to try using a pack and play...that's what we did :) he sleeps in the front room and we leave our door wide open so we can hear him. it seems to work for now. but babies are tricky...austin has been harder than angela was. hang in there girl! and good luck!

RHulsey said...

Oy Vey pal. Do you think any of it might have to do with his digestive issues?