I could not ask for more

I was just looking over a friend's blog when Morgan came over to me at the computer and started trying to forcefully place herself on my lap. She was climbing all over the chair like crazy, and she lost her footing and fell, rather awkwardly, to the floor. I scooped her up as my friend's blog started playing the song, "I could not ask for more" by Sara Evans.

As I sat there trying to calm Morgan after the fall, I cuddled her in my arms with her blanket like I used to when she first came along to change our life forever. She softly stroked my cheek while I sang the words,

"These are the moments, I thank God that I'm alive. These are the moments I'll remember all my life... yeah right here in this moment is right where I'm meant to be... "

And of course the tears came.

There I sat, with my sweet, sweet girl nearly falling asleep in my arms and I realized that while sometimes we have so many seemingly huge problems in our lives, there's no better fix than the small moments with our children. I know the biggest gift the Lord has ever given me is the opportunity to be a mother.

With the new baby coming, I find myself having the same fears I had when I was expecting Morgan, but with a new spin. With Morgan I was so afraid I would not have the inexplicable love that every mother describes. That fear, obviously, was unfounded. Now I find myself wondering, "How is it even possible for me to love another person as much as I love this one? Can I really share this love between two souls?"

I am shocked everyday at the ability my heart has to grow. Honestly, with some of the things Morgan does, I don't know how it doesn't burst inside my chest. With that knowledge, I think I can assume somehow I will be able to love this next baby as much as I love my first.

"I could not ask for more than this time together, I could not ask for more than this time with you, every prayer has been answered...and I could not ask for more."